Now is the most important time
This post has been incubating for several weeks now, so I thought it was time to share it with others and see if I get any responses.
I’ve noticed in the past few months that I’ve become very reflective. I’m not sure what started the process,
whether it was another one of those birthdays, which end with a zero, flashing past at the speed of light, or whether it was something I’d been reading
Certainly a quote from Leo Tolstoy, in his short story “Three Questions”, fanned the flames, but I think the fire was already smouldering away, it just needed something to give it life. The quote was “Remember then: there is only one time that is important – Now! It is the most important time because it is the only time when we have any power”.
The past is unchangeable, the future unpredictable, so we can only live the life that is directly before us – this last sentence is my interpretation of the quote.
This thought smacked me straight between the eyes, for one of my greatest failings, is my inability to contain my thoughts to the present. I may be looking at something truly amazing, at something I’ve long wanted to see or experience, but where are my thoughts – they’ve shot ahead to the next item on the agenda.
As I reflected on this inability to ‘be in the present’, I realised just how much pleasure I’ve robbed myself of, over my lifetime. To be really honest, I’ve probably, at times, robbed others of the pleasure to, simply because “we need to keep moving”.
I’m not sure what caused this problem, whether it was training – I was an engineer, which seems to explain a lot about me in some peoples’ minds – or whether it was upbringing, which I doubt, as my father is my complete opposite, or whether it was circumstances. Whatever the cause, it’s been with me a long time and I really would like to change.
Since my epiphany, I’ve done some reading to see how I can change my way of interacting with life, but so far I haven’t discovered any solution that works for me. So if there is anyone who has successfully dealt with this issue, then I’d love to hear how you’ve done it.